I left with a box

Dear Liam…I am so sorry I couldn’t save you.

I left with a box…

I left with a box, not sure if it is blue or green.

I left with a box, to hold all of your things.

I left with a box, to place on our shelf.

I left with a box, to somehow help.

I left with a box, that reminds me of that day.

I left with a box but I should have left with you.

I should have left with you crying or sleeping soundly, all tucked in.

I should have left with you, swaying in the capsule to the car.

I should have left with my boy, showing you off proudly to the world.

I should have left with my boy, while staring down into your big blue eyes.

I left with a box… full of clothing, memories and prints…these coupled with my voice to prove that you lived.